Why won't you let me?

- I'm trying to love you.. why won't you let me?

- My ex... was um... He took something from me. He took little pieces of me, little pieces over time, so small I didn't notice, you know? He wanted me to be something I wasn't and I made myself into what he wanted. I lost myself for a long time and now, that I'm finally me again... I love you more than I loved him, I love you and that scares the crap out of me!

Why?!

I miss you... I freaking miss you!!

I know that what I had with you,
I will never have it with anyone else...

Why I had to dream about you?
Why were we together?
Why you had to say we would be together forever,
and that your love would only be mine?!
Why we slept together?

But those are not the questions I want to ask...
All I want to know is why it was only a dream?!
Why I miss you the way I do?
Why I need you the way I do?
You were the one, and I know it...
Why did I let you go?!
Why?!

How to Really LOVE a Child

Be there.  Say Yes as often as possible.  Let them bang on pots and pans.  If they're crabby, put them in water.  If they're unlovable, love yourself.  Realize how important it is to be a child.  Go to a movie theater in your pajamas.  Read books out loud with joy.  Invent pleasures together.  Remember how really small they are.  Giggle a lot.  Surprise them.  Say no when necessary.  Teach feelings.  Heal your own inner child.  Learn about parenting.  Hug trees together.  Make loving safe.  Bake a cake and eat it with no hands.  Go find elephants and kiss them.  Plan to build a rocket ship.  Imagine yourself magic.  Make lots of forts with your blankets.  Let your angel fly.  Reveal your own dreams.  Search out the positive.  Encourage silly.  Plant flowers in your garden.  Open up.  STOP YELLING.  Express your love A lot.  Speak kindly.  Paint their tennis shoes.  Handle with caring.  Ride bikes together in the early morning.  Make breakfast together.  Look at the stars at night.  Use finger paints to color a smile. Feed them healthy stuff.  Make sure they always fun.  Take them for a walk to the beach.  Build sand castles.  Pretend play.  Stay late -one night- watching movies and eating popcorn.

Children are Miraculous! =)