Ella y Él...

Ella es de Ecuador; él de Nueva York
Ella baila en salsa; a él le gusta el rock
Ella vende besos en un burdel
Mientras el se gradúa en U.C.L.A.

Ella es medio Marxista; él es Republicano
Ella quiere ser artista; él odia a los Ecuatorianos
Él cree en la Estatua de la Libertad
Y ella en su vieja Ecuador de la Soledad

Él ha comido hamburguesas
Ella moros con carne
Él, el champagne con sus fresas
Ella un mojito Cubano
Ella se fue de gira a Miami
Y el de vacaciones al mismo lugar

Mulata hasta los pies; él rubio como el sol
Ella no habla Ingles; y él menos Español.
Él fue a tomar un trago sin sospechar...
Que iba a encontrar el amor en aquel lugar!

Lo que las ideologías dividen al hombre...
El amor con sus hilos los une en su nombre.

Ella mueve su cintura al ritmo de un tan, tan;
Y él se va divorciando del Tío Sam
Él se refugia en su piel... la quiere para él;
Y ella se va olvidando de Fidel
Que sabían Lenin y Lincoln del amor
Que saben Fidel y Clinton del amor

Ella se sienta en su mesa; él tiembla de la emoción
Ella se llama Teresa; y él se llama John
Ella dice hola chico; él contesta hello
A ella no le para el pico; él dice speak slow.
Él se guardo su bandera; ella olvido los conflictos.
Él encontró la manera de que el amor salga invicto...
La tomo de la mano y se la llevó,
Él Yanqui de la Ecuatoriana se enamoró

Lo que las ideologías dividen al hombre...
El amor con sus hilos los une en su nombre.

Ahora viven en París,
Buscaron tierra neutral.
Ella logró ser actriz; él es un tipo normal
Caminan de la mano por calle Campos Elíseos
Como quién se burla del planeta y sus vicios...

Cleaning up my computer...

My laptop crashed today, I know it was not working properly as it had given me the blue screen twice already... and the technician had told me it had problems with the hard drive. I had backed up a lot of my stuff, pretty much my pictures, my music and my work stuff... I was just too lazy to clean up my personal stuff. So I decided today was the day.

Started looking at all my documents, looking at what should I erase and what should I keep. I tend to forget about everything, I don't understand why I have such a bad memory; but that's the way it is with me :-s  So, I found a lot of documents, erased some and kept some... and then one on of my private folders, found my diary -I used to keep it back when I was with my ex- started reading it, and I felt as if I missed what we had... a little.  I thought that in my healing process I had erased everything I had from him and that his pictures were only kept in my passport, which I don't normally open. But I had these things there, things I had written about him, about how I felt back then and all those nice feelings you have when you are happy with someone.

I can't remember how it all went wrong with us... we were so great together, we always had so much fun and enjoy being with the other a lot... we could spend a weekend watching movies, just the two of us, special weekends they were... We would wake up, make love, take a shower together, go out to eat breakfast, come back to his apartment or mine, watch a movie, then another, then another one, then he would cook lunch, make love again, take a shower together again, watch comedy shows and then go to bed and chit chat and make love many times! It was perfect! We were able to do that, and also we had fun going out... he would go out with my friends, I would go out with his friends... It was just amazing! Such a great guy, never complained if I had plans with my friends or anything like that... he used to say: "Gabby, you're a grown up woman... I know you can handle yourself."  And of course I could, I had such a great man waiting for me that I would have never done anything wrong to him.

So, I kept looking for things to back up, just making sure I had everything... it was then when I got to my "Chat Logs" folder -I normally keep my chat logs, because I thought it was a good idea to have in writing what my baby's daddy says- I was about to erase the whole folder, as I really didn't want to transfer all those files to my new computer; but after reading all the nice things I had said about my ex (before), I was curious to see if I had any logs from him... and I did!!!! So, I started reading... it is great when you start liking someone, the way you talk to them, the way they talk to you and everything! I could see how interested he was in me, how much he wanted to kiss me, how we started with the right feet and how everything was great... and got to the point where I realized why things went wrong...

We had a friend in common, this friend was actually the friend that introduced him to me... and this friend of ours, liked me... but liked me in a sexual way, that's it; and of course, I didn't like that. He kept telling me things about him, things that I should have never thought about... my ex was simply just a great guy... but he wanted us to break up, he wanted that badly. He will come to my house to try to see me; he would text me when he was with my ex; he just did plenty of stuff... And of course I was always loyal to my ex, but this things that he kept telling me got me a bit stressed out, thinking that my ex could be able to hurt me and I started freaking out! How I regret that... if it wasn't for that... we could still be together.

So, I found the files... two months worth of conversations... things like: I miss you, you're my everything, I love you, I can't live without you, you're the best thing that has ever happened to me, I'm so glad I met you that day, I'm so glad I was there that day... things like that were said, after all we had such a great relationship. Now I understand why it took more than two years to finally get over him... but why do I still miss him?  I really don't know if it is that I miss him, or what we were... I guess I'll never know that...

I never told you...

I love this song! Reminds me of someone I love and miss!

I miss those blue eyes

How you kiss me at night

I miss the way we sleep

Like there's no sunrise

Like the taste of your smile

I miss the way we breathe

But I never told you

What I should have said

No, I never told you

I just held it in

And now,

I miss everything about you

Can't believe that I still want you

And after all the things we've been through

I miss everything about you

Without you

I see your blue eyes

Every time I close mine

You make it hard to see

Where I belong to

When I'm not around you

It's like I'm alone with me

But I never told you

What I should have said

No, I never told you

I just held it in

And now,

I miss everything about you

Can't believe that I still want you

And after all the things we've been through

I miss everything about you

Without you

But I never told you

What I should have said

No, I never told you

I just held it in

And now,

I miss everything about you

Can't believe that I still want you

And after all the things we've been through

I miss everything about you

Without you